Confession time. I was debating whether or not to post this, but here it is.
As many of my friends and family know, I love animals. LOVE them. Dogs, cats, goats, pigs, rabbits. frogs, lizards, you name it. And yes, even snakes occasionally, lol. But my love for animals is causing a problem…. A deep heart problem.
I try to love and care and hurt for people, I really do. It’s something that I have always struggled with because of my love for animals–especially ones that have been abused by people. It’s something that I pray, seek forgiveness, and ask for a change of heart for often.
Lately I have seen more and more posts about dogs and cats in particular being beaten, malnourished, or left for dead and my heart breaks for these helpless creatures. I’ve even seen videos of the animal being smacked, punched in the head repeatedly, or shot. And I mean the acts themselves, not just pictures of videos of the aftermath. Towards the animals, I feel nothing but sadness and helplessness as there is nothing I can do for the creature I see being hurt. I cry for these animals being hurt because the person finds it entertaining.
HOWEVER, for the people I feel nothing but anger towards them. Why would they do this? Why is this amusing to them? I see them as twisted, cruel, and heartless. Occurrences like this make it harder and harder for me to love, care, and hurt for people because all I feel is sad. Not for the people, but for the animals.
I love animals way more than I love people and honestly, I’m not okay with this. I talk to my husband often of my frustration with this issue.
I can see and hear stories about animals dying after being beaten or thrown around and I will cry. Like… ugly girl cry. Then I’ll run to my dog, tell him how much I love him, and hug his neck until the tears stop flowing. But I see or hear stories of bombings, mass murders, and rape and am I saddened? Yes I am, truly. But its rare for these stories to bring me to tears.
This isn’t okay and I’m 100% aware of it’s not-okayness.
So why am I posting this? Not for feedback or comments, but for prayer that my heart can change. Not for me to love animals any less, but that my love for people will grow to outweigh my love for animals. I like to think that there are animals in heaven, and I really hope that our pets are there to play and spend time with while we worship our Lord for the rest of eternity. But at the end of the day, it’s the people who matter. Where will their souls end up at the end of their earthly lives? Shouldn’t THAT be my focus?
Yes. It should..
(photo credit: Pixabay)