I knew the story line from when I was younger as there was an old animated version. My kids fell in love with Pete just as I had as a young girl. The new movie is a beautiful story of love and friendship, but there was a song in the movie that once I heard it, the lyrics hit me hard and I cried. I knew I had to find it so I could listen to it again as I felt those words just speak to my grieving heart.
The song was “Nobody Knows”, by The Lumineer’s (I love their soulful sound and how almost every one of their songs just speaks.)
Here are the lyrics……(video below)
Nobody knows how to say goodbye,
It seems so easy ’til you try,
Then the moment’s passed you by,
Nobody knows how to say goodbye.
Nobody knows how to get back home,
And we set out so long ago,
Searched the heavens and the earth below,
Nobody knows how to get back home.
Through the darkness to the dawn,
When I looked back you were gone,
Heard your voice leading me on
Through the darkness to the dawn.
Love is deep as the road is long,
It moves my feet to carry on,
Beats my heart when you are gone,
Love is deep as the road is long.
Nobody knows how the story ends,
Live the day, do what you can,
This is only where it began,
Nobody knows how the story ends,
Nobody knows how the story ends
Now I don’t know the story behind these words, or why it was written, but for me this has been my journey of grief.
In those last moments, sitting at my dad’s bedside, I almost felt like a little girl. How in the world was I to carry on without my dad? How would I know what to do? (Keep in mind, I’ve been married for almost 20 years and have lived apart from my dad that long too…..he would probably have rolled his eyes at me and say, “Well I’ve not exactly been leading you sis!” But, you get my point……dad was the leader of our family.)
If I look at these words with my dad in mind, I can see that he still does lead me in my every day life. If I look at these words with Jesus in mind, I can see that He leads to hope. I never have taken my eyes off of Jesus during this process, but I know for some, this journey of grief can feel as though you never will hear His voice again. There have been times where I don’t always hear Him, but I know good and well, He’s never left me…..I just have to keep walking thru the darkness to get to the dawn.
I think the darkness is mostly behind me now and the sting doesn’t hurt as bad. (Sure they are still those days of heaviness in my heart.) The glorious dawn is there though. It’s where there are far better things to be thankful for when I look back at all that has happened in the last year really. Thankful for all the joyful memories and character traits that dad has put into not only me, but my sister. There are moments when I look at my kids and I think, “My dad would get a kick out of them.” for something silly they did. I cherish those moments……which lead me to my most favorite lyrics in the next set……the ones the bring such Hope!
Love is deep, as the road is long. It moves my feet to carry on. Beats my heart, when you are gone. Love is deep, as the road is long.
Ooh so good!
Because that love that dad loved my mom, my sister, and me with…….it was deep and fierce. No doubt, this journey will still be long, but it, “moves my feet to carry on, and beats my heart, when you are gone. Love is deep, as the road is long.”
One thing I do know.
I know how the story ends. Yes we’ll live each day and do what we can, but I know that one glorious day in Eternity, that the road will lead us all back together again in Glory!
Till then….I’ll keep walking towards the Light!